Suffocating

[Lightning]

Entschuldigt, dass es auf Englisch ist, aber in einer anderen Sprache fällt es mir manchmal leichter.

Suffocating

There's something wrong
It's not okay
I've been broken for so long
I want to fade away

Why can't I just leave
Why must I take this weight?
It's suffocating me, I can't breathe
There's nothing but hate, hate, hate

I want to kill it
I'm dreaming of it all night
Of this hole damn shit
And I'm longing to make it right

But it's stonger than me
I fight it on and on
That's not who I wanna be
I'll try all days long

It's not fair, it's not right
What have I done?
Why am I forced to fight?
Its end will never come

No matter how hard I try
It won't fade away
No matter how loud I crie
It won't be okay

I'm losing my mind
It drives me crazy
I can no longer fight
Can someone kill me, one day maybe?

No one cares about how I am
No one cares about how it feels
Hope for me, 'cause I no longer can
Why seem some wounds not to heal?

[Siny]

:'(
true that

[Lightning]

Diese Gedichte habe ich tonnenweise, ganze Ordner und Bücher voll davon. Manchmal schreibe ich drei und mehr prot Tag, dann wieder wochenlang nichts. Ob es hilft weiß ich selbst nicht ganz. Aber es ist allemal besser, als nichts tun.
Wenn ich schon dabei bin, würde ich gerne noch einen so wahren Refrain hier posten, auch wenn er nicht von mir ist:

"Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away, no

Ooh, can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away"

(aus dem Lied Understanding von Evanescence 1998)